Hello guys! Hope you haven’t missed me too much. I’ve been taking care of some personal matters lately. Firstly I have had to have a couple of mini operations on my toe, nothing major but it was hurting alot yesterday after I’d had it done. I had half the nail removed and the granulation scraped. Because my skin always scars really badly and I end up with raised scars so I had to have it re-done, only this time the Doc took some of the nail off to let it grow back normally. So I’m a little in pain and can’t wear shoes! I can’t wait to get back into my heels! That’s why I was wearing my jeans and socks last night, because I can’t get into heels and I just didn’t feel like dressing up because of the pain, But I still really enjoying playing on cam with you guys!
I wanna give a shout out to MaleSlut who always comes to my shows, thankyou for coming and I look forward to seeing your name in the chatroom and getting to chat to you! Also a big up to Mag who I seem to share a lot of private jokes with! Hehe! Thanks for cumming Mag, hope you enjoyed it too! There are tons more of you, I can’t list all the names as I am too busy answering everyone and providing a good show for everyone! I saw someone mention the hairless mole though hahahaha! That was funny so thanks for the laugh.
Well guys Halloween is nearing, and not only is it my birthday (yes that can’t be a coincidence can it! I think I was born evil!!) but I have some spooky surprises coming for you! Not only will there be special spooky camshows, but I will be updating Babeink.com with lots of erotic horror! I can’t wait! Now here is a sneak preview of one of the new props we got, his name is Bones, and I was shocked to come down stairs one morning and find Bones had a boner! He was wanking too…Here is the evidence!!
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Oh yes, more good news, I have a new toy, thanks to Paul! Thank you thank you thank you!! Some love eggs which I have never tried before, so I am looking forward to using them! Also something else but he wants a secret preview before it goes on the site so we shal keep it a secret for now hehe.
What else have I been upto? Well in between doing the webcam I have been getting my creative monster well and truly quenched with lots of drawing and painting and reading. I have kitted myself out with acrylics again and got all the equipment to take up art again. It’s been about 5 years or more since I last seriously did any drawing so it is so good to get back to it. I feel so much better for letting my feelings out on paper, and it’s helping me to keep the mood swings in check. I’ve done a few paintings that I like as well as some drawings in drawing pen. I’m trying all different ways of doing things. I don’t like to just work in one medium but like to combine all sorts of things like watercolour, drawing pen, pencil. I love texture and building up layers. Looking back on my drawings from when I was a teen is really funny and I can see all the mistakes I made. I keep all the crap as well as the good stuff I do, because I think you can learn alot from your mistakes, and we all make them! I don’t mind making them as long as I learn from them.
I’m making this a nice long blog I guess because I feel like I’ve been away emotionally for a while. I had to go back to the clinic and get put on a new medication as well as my current one, and it’s been up and down. Whilst building up the dose each 10 days I have been in bed throwing up all day each day the dosage goes up. So that has taken it out of me. But I am now on the managing dose so I shouldn’t have to go through that again unless they put me up again. Stopping my meds was a dumb thing to do and I started to down hill again so I thought I was just submit and admit I have an illness. I have tried over the years to cope with it on my own and not get any help. But you know what? It’s ok to admit you need help, it’s ok to rely on someone, to trust someone to be there for you in the bad times. I feel alot better, still getting down days but I’ve had a few up ones too and have been up all night annoying my Husband in bed bouncing around at 4am in the morning asking him if he thinks there are too many budgies in the world hahaha along with other stupid things. I can’t keep still or sleep when I go manic, it’s kinda nice but also annoying because I end up staying away and then getting tired but not being able to calm down. I think I should be stuck in a padded room when I get like this! I always manage to get into some kind of trouble hehe ooops!
I bought a bookcase yesterday, my books were starting to flow out of the cupboards and there were loads of them all over my table, so I thought it was about time I got them somewhere to go. Along with all my magazines too. So they are all nicely arranged now where I can get to them. I’m reading Close by Martina Cole, Much ado about nothing by shakespeare (Shakespeare takes me ages to read as I have to consult the dictionary for all the old words that we don’t use anymore!), a complete book of dinosaurs and paleontology, poetry by Sylvia Plath and a few other bits and bobs. I can’t just stick to one book, I have to have tons of them on the go.
I got all my video games out too to go in the book shelves. I had forgotten I had them, not really got time to play them. I love Rayman, Sonic the hedgehog, Jak and Daxter and loads of others but I mainly like platformers. I sometimes play other genres though. Good to mix things up a little!
My new fave thing to do is get a baked potato and go and eat it somewhere nice outdoors. Well it’s healthier than fast foot and it’s nice to see a bit of nature hehe.
So today I am updating the site. Don’t worry my loyal members, you will get updates several times a week now, and every 4 weeks when I am on my period and not camming I will dedicate a week to the site so you’ll get loads of updates then too!
Hope you are all having a good weekend, email me and let me know what you get upto. And don’t drink too much! Hangovers so aren’t worth it.
Tina Marie xxx www.babeink.com
